The thing is ... self-sabotage is probably the No.1 reason why people like me don't make writing a habit. For some reason, I think I am not good enough. Thoughts like, "What makes me so special that my book is going to sell millions of copies and I am going to live the life I've always dreamed of?" or "I think my writing is good and then I pick up a book written by a well known published author and suddenly mine looks like something a 10 year old wrote."
Then I spend all my energy coming up with reasons why I haven't written. Here are a few - see if any of these are on your list too.
- I spend all day on my computer at work, the last thing I want to do when I get home is sit in front of a computer.
- It's too HOT (anyone in NZ this summer will recognise that one).
- It's too COLD (that one is saved for winter).
- House Rules is on (or How to Make a Murderer on Netflix).
- I've got writer's block at the moment.
- It's too sunny, I need to be outside.
- It's raining, I need to curl up and sleep with the cats.
- I'm too tired.
- and the list goes on ...
But I think the most frustrating one, and the one that I am currently suffering from, is "I want to write, but I have no idea why I'm not doing it."
That one is difficult to understand. I just hope I figure out what is stopping me, so that I can continue to write this book which, by all accounts, I still really like (and that's odd for me).