Well it has been nearly 2 months and this is only the second post to this blog. I was not going to bother writing one after I had mentally chastised myself for my slackness and then I thought 'No, this is what trying to write a first novel is all about ... how many excuses I can come up with for not writing my book and realising the life I ultimately want for myself!"
The thing is ... self-sabotage is probably the No.1 reason why people like me don't make writing a habit. For some reason, I think I am not good enough. Thoughts like, "What makes me so special that my book is going to sell millions of copies and I am going to live the life I've always dreamed of?" or "I think my writing is good and then I pick up a book written by a well known published author and suddenly mine looks like something a 10 year old wrote."
Then I spend all my energy coming up with reasons why I haven't written. Here are a few - see if any of these are on your list too.
But I think the most frustrating one, and the one that I am currently suffering from, is "I want to write, but I have no idea why I'm not doing it."
That one is difficult to understand. I just hope I figure out what is stopping me, so that I can continue to write this book which, by all accounts, I still really like (and that's odd for me).
Having had some small success writing 10 minute plays and stories in collaborative books, I am now attempting the daunting task of writing my first novel! I began this process at the beginning of 2015 and, after slipping in my motivation, I now realise that I need to keep myself ACCOUNTABLE! What better way than to start 2016 with a Blog!